Amphibian

this is the definition of amphibian that I get from Encarta

am·phib·i·an adjective

1. land animal that breeds in water: a cold-blooded vertebrate that spends some time on land but must breed and develop into an adult in water. Frogs, salamanders, and toads are amphibians. Class Amphibia.

2. aircraft or vehicle: an aircraft or vehicle designed to operate on land or water

so , from my understanding, amphibian is something which can live or function in two different worlds.

i'm writing this as i am inspired by my own amphibian life. it does not mean that i'm a frog or toad or salamander. i'm just human, and i use the word of amphibian to label ME.
to be honest i'm not a fan of those amphibians. in fact that i'm trying hard not to scream or jump or run everytime i see one of them on my backyard or in my closet.

ok, let's talk about why should i label ME, to an amphibian if i hate or afraid of the real amphibian.
the main reason is that because i feel like living in two different worlds of mine. this is because of my changing roles. in one day of my life, i could change my role for several times. as teacher, as friend, as daughter, as sister, as wife.
sometimes i can be mean, i can be lovely, i can be selfish, i can be witty.

i live in the world of darkness and in the world of light. i previously think that's normal. everything in this universe comes with its own spouse. inseparable.
and human like ME, sometimes right sometimes wrong, sometimes black sometimes white, sometimes hot sometimes cold, sometimes yes sometimes no.

i have the bright side of ME when i live in the world of light. i have nothing to hide. i have to be clean and honest because everything in ME can be seen clearly by others. i have to be sin free, i have to be white so that i can blend well in the community.

but i also have lots and lots of dark side of ME when i live in the world of darkness. in the dark i can hide so many bad things. because in the dark i'm hard to be noticed, i can do wrong, i can be full of sin, i can be mean, i can be full of dirt, because i'm invisible. and i have to be black so that i can blend well in the community.

in the name of compromising, i believe that to live in two sides of world is human right. and now, i urge US well to deny that.

because WE are too clever to drag ourselves to H**L. because WE are brilliant enough to believe that WE should living a life in the world of light where everything is bright. when there's nothing to hide because there's no place to hide.

even if the light is dim, it's better that the black out.
so turn on the lights of OUR life now.
although the lights might hurt the eyes which are used to the darkness, trust YOU that this will only take a second or two.
and as time passes by, WE'll get use to with the bright light.

so, do SWITCH ON....!!

xxxx
deedee